It’s freak me out to be kind…!

Its freak me out be a cold hearted just to be strong among people To be wanted !

To be told “She’s strong” ! Its freak me out to act like a wanted person instead of act like who i want to be ..

Its freak me out to be kind to everyone and they turns into a thirst vampire for blood, for using me, for having fun, for being a master and through me away after unusable Its freak me out to deal with this life like a board game .. Like monopoly or cluedo .. You have to fight till the end .. Kill or steal to win Or be dead by thirst vimpires ! Of money, sex and power.

Its freak me out when i smile at people at streets and they look back with a dirty minded look.. When i say hello to people .. When i give another chance to people.

Its freak me out to be kind…!

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Not around anymore

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That’s her..
She was my bestfriend, maybe still..
I was always around, but not anymore
She was broken, hopeless, pure
But not anymore
She loved and changed
She’s conceited, bumptious
Full of love and life
When he’s around
She acts cool and shameless
Too much free and careless
Strong and fancy
She forgot her pureness
She used to care, but now just to take attention
She’s around cool friends, but not with ture friends
She’s alone..

Shes just full of compassion

She is … Well she is full of love, shes not smart nor stupid .. Shes just full of compassion ..and would do anything to help people ,people misjudge her into someone stupid .. Shes afraid of many things but try everything
Shes full of passion .. Shes a secret
She always push me away .. Shes afraid of being with me but loves me .. She makes me smile, sometimes sad .. She turst me but not of my loyalty, she misunderstood me and make me mad
But when im with her the whole world at our fingertips, and the only thing i want to feel is her

2015 review

2015 review

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As i said 2013 was the best year in my whole life .. As working at 13 project in 6 months and spending the best time working with my best friends at #baghdad and leaving them to start a new life at suli .. It was the hardest times also but what we can do..!
2015 changed me a lot ! I spent the first and best #SummerCamp in turkey .. I used to be alone for 1 month with lil money .. I had to learn how to keep it and i did !
I learnt how to be a great leader thankfully for the campers ! They chosed me 🙂 i was a team leader for #CampKillers team of 23 member .. I was too worried if i couldnt handle it ! But as i succeed it was because of them 🙂 we were like a real family taking care of eachother and laugh , sing when we lose .. They taught me how to be a leader and how to love myself .. The moment !
It was amazing to sleep 6 nights at the beach ! Never thought that ! Happy to have an amazing friend like selen ! Shes the best person in the world !
Then i had to deal with the pain of going back to Iraq’s life .. It was hard tho for traviling for the first time

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Then #inno4dev came and taught me a lot of how to deal wuth projects … Its all about emotions and fun ! Not seriously ! Believe me ! I met my old friends again from baghdad and met great people ! And we all try to work with new projects for a better future .. They gave me a lot of hope and lovely dreams 🙂

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And finally the #Hiking group that also had a big touch as the camp ! I had a lot of strength to fight the fear of hights .. And how to deal with my life instead of complaining about my knees .. Even tho i cry at night after every hike but it woth it !! Its about living the moment .. Adventure and nature .. I love nature and always wanted to spent a good time with it
Always wished to be a cave girl instead of party girl or even artist ! :))) after all the pain … The feeling just makes u like u just born again … And made me meet an amazing people

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After all that .. I had the worst and hardest days of my life tho even kicked out of my job! But 2013 and 2015 are the best years 🙂

2015 review

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As i said 2013 was the best year in my whole life .. As working at 13 project in 6 months and spending the best time working with my best friends at #baghdad and leaving them to start a new life at suli .. It was the hardest times also but what we can do..!
2015 changed me a lot ! I spent the first and best #SummerCamp in turkey .. I used to be alone for 1 month with lil money .. I had to learn how to keep it and i did !
I learnt how to be a great leader thankfully for the campers ! They chosed me 🙂 i was a team leader for #CampKillers team of 23 member .. I was too worried if i couldnt handle it ! But as i succeed it was because of them 🙂 we were like a real family taking care of eachother and laugh , sing when we lose .. They taught me how to be a leader and how to love myself .. The moment !
It was amazing to sleep 6 nights at the beach ! Never thought that ! Happy to have an amazing friend like selen ! Shes the best person in the world !
Then i had to deal with the pain of going back to Iraq’s life .. It was hard tho for traviling for the first time

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Then #inno4dev came and taught me a lot of how to deal wuth projects  … Its all about emotions and fun ! Not seriously ! Believe me ! I met my old friends again from baghdad and met great people ! And we all try to work with new projects for a better future .. They gave me a lot of hope and lovely dreams 🙂

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And finally the #Hiking group that also had a big touch as the camp ! I had a lot of strength to fight the fear of hights .. And how to deal with my life instead of complaining about my knees .. Even tho i cry at night after every hike but it woth it !! Its about living the moment .. Adventure and nature .. I love nature and always wanted to spent a good time with it
Always wished to be a cave girl instead of party girl or even artist ! :))) after all the pain … The feeling just makes u like u just born again … And made me meet an amazing people

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After all that .. I had the worst and hardest days of my life tho even kicked out of my job! But 2013 and 2015 are the best years 🙂